Haven’t updated anything for awhile now, I pretty much abandoned my blog simply because I couldn’t really figure out what I have been and still feeling. Things have been super complicated these past few months, nothing much has been getting better its either getting from bad to worse or not changing at all. Everything just sucks right now.

My apartment  frm the front view

Moved into my new apartment with my brother and his girlfriend and it’s already been a month. I guess I kinda do like living with them, though I don’t get much freedom as I did before but its kinda letting me feel that I’m always going to have someone to depend on rather then I did when I was living with other people which kinda made me feel crappy & shameless cause I was depending more on other people’s welfare or forcing them to accept me in their lives. But I bid farewell to those feelings when I got my very own place. Though I kinda miss staying with my friend and her family, who treated me      like their own for two years, and that’s something that I cannot forget.

As for my relationship status, I’m now single. It’s harder than I thought it would be. Being with a person for two years and suddenly one day that person is stranger to me is hard. It hurts like hell, I have to admit that, there were too much tears being wasted for just this one person who never appreciated me, it just made me feel stupid. So the moral of my pathetic relationship is that, never believe anything a guy says, the hopes they give you or the promises they make cause they’d never make those words come true. 2 relationships I pushed myself into and this is what I got and these kinda  feelings just tires me  and I once i let go I feel so much  free now. I have no more obligations to be loyal or be worrying about my other half all the time. I kinda like the way it is now, so let’s just hope that everything stays this way till imp ready to have someone in my life again.

College has been nothing but a nightmare. I cannot express how much I hate my college and how much I hate studying. Just finish my finals and guess what I hate my college wayyyy moreeee now. Damn how much I regret thinking that continuing to study was a good choice! I feel like slapping myself for that. All I want right now is to get my stupid degree over with and imp done with studying.

And to make things better I have my dear friends. Glad that I have a few good ones that I can always turn too, or drag me out of being miserable all the time. 

Genting with this 2 crazy girls

This week has been I guess the best week so far, been meeting up with some of my close friends since Sunday, and I made a trip to Genting with two of my old friends and I guess I haven’t laughed that much in a very long time. Tomorrow would be my last day in kl, will be meeting up with another old friend and then on Sunday I’m off to Kedah for the rest of my semester break. Can’t wait to see my parents, another bunch of people that has never failed to make me feel wanted.

So i guess that’s all for now, till than toodles