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Ugh feel like i haven't been free for like a gazillion years *drama queen* been so busy that there was barely time for anything, studying and working at the same time definitely sucks ! its just part time to get me some moneh & experience i need to get better job options in the future but its so tiring. Thank God I've finished my assigned job period now its finals and thesis and a few job interviews i may possibly want to attempt once my finals ends.
Got nothing much that's new to update cause like i what i was whining earlier I've basically been lifeless. Got my licences and i have started driving to only near destinations and so far its been an awful experience, dear lord the traffic, the squeeze-your-car-in-if-you-dare parking spots the reckless bikers and drivers is so horrible, i cannot believe i was all excited to drive before this.
Got a new puppy too, this is a good news, i have a lil cuddlepuff to baby and keep me accompanied. My brother adopted her from a family whom are moving out of the country and has no where to put her since they cant take her along so we officially got her a few days ago, she's still getting used to the new environment and new people so she a Lil less hyper than she was at her old home but apparently has become quite attached to my brother. The deal here is that within a week if she doesn't adapt well to us then she has to go back to her old family so I'm hoping she would be okay cause i kinda like her....too much actually hehe
I also got into being a finalist at a college competition out of 200 students, proudest moment ever but i don't get any acknowledgement just extra credit for a subject of my choice but it felt nice to have me and my group in the top 20 and have our name broadcasted. Felt smart for once till we actually had to go agaisnt other groups in the top 20. We had to compete against 5 groups, but here is where i felt stupid cause my group and the other 3 groups lost to a very-smart-lord-knows-where-they-get-their-brains-from group of students. I had my mouth open most of the time that they were presenting and answering the questions being thrown at them. I was definitely awed.
Now the sad thing this week would be that the students of my batch are having their graduation ceremony and some posted the picture taken during the ceremony got me a lil sad actually no got me real sad because i wasn't there. I know i cant do anything about it cause if i had the money i would have been done with college last year and would be with them graduating, but sadly my financial situation decided i shouldn't graduate and that i should just stay in college.
I was complaining to a few of my group-mates about how much i wanted to graduate and never comeback to college again and they found that i was being quite silly. You see there are many students like them that were from 2 to 3 intakes before me and still haven't graduated or even close too and apparently im still in the fast phase and i was listening to this thinking ermm i've been here for 3 years and that's not normal for me, thats me proving to my family and everyone else that im dumb and useless and in addition to that I still find it so hard to accept that many of my batch mates are off into a different phase and I'm still stuck here and looking at the ceremony pictures just made it worse. Well no point complaining, "no money, no talk" but hell I'm still proud of all my friends cause i know how much they all had to endure to get where they are, and trust me i salute them for it. Brothers graduation is coming soon too, i don't know if i could be happy for him or just roll on the floor while crying my eyes out cause there is definitely gonna be lotsa comparing going on.
No chances of giving up cause I know giving right now is not gonna happen when i have several responsibilities assigned *yes assigned* to me already that's needs to be take care off a.s.a.p so all i can do now is not give up and do my best *horrible moto*
Got nothing much that's new to update cause like i what i was whining earlier I've basically been lifeless. Got my licences and i have started driving to only near destinations and so far its been an awful experience, dear lord the traffic, the squeeze-your-car-in-if-you-dare parking spots the reckless bikers and drivers is so horrible, i cannot believe i was all excited to drive before this.
Got a new puppy too, this is a good news, i have a lil cuddlepuff to baby and keep me accompanied. My brother adopted her from a family whom are moving out of the country and has no where to put her since they cant take her along so we officially got her a few days ago, she's still getting used to the new environment and new people so she a Lil less hyper than she was at her old home but apparently has become quite attached to my brother. The deal here is that within a week if she doesn't adapt well to us then she has to go back to her old family so I'm hoping she would be okay cause i kinda like her....too much actually hehe
I also got into being a finalist at a college competition out of 200 students, proudest moment ever but i don't get any acknowledgement just extra credit for a subject of my choice but it felt nice to have me and my group in the top 20 and have our name broadcasted. Felt smart for once till we actually had to go agaisnt other groups in the top 20. We had to compete against 5 groups, but here is where i felt stupid cause my group and the other 3 groups lost to a very-smart-lord-knows-where-they-get-their-brains-from group of students. I had my mouth open most of the time that they were presenting and answering the questions being thrown at them. I was definitely awed.
Now the sad thing this week would be that the students of my batch are having their graduation ceremony and some posted the picture taken during the ceremony got me a lil sad actually no got me real sad because i wasn't there. I know i cant do anything about it cause if i had the money i would have been done with college last year and would be with them graduating, but sadly my financial situation decided i shouldn't graduate and that i should just stay in college.
I was complaining to a few of my group-mates about how much i wanted to graduate and never comeback to college again and they found that i was being quite silly. You see there are many students like them that were from 2 to 3 intakes before me and still haven't graduated or even close too and apparently im still in the fast phase and i was listening to this thinking ermm i've been here for 3 years and that's not normal for me, thats me proving to my family and everyone else that im dumb and useless and in addition to that I still find it so hard to accept that many of my batch mates are off into a different phase and I'm still stuck here and looking at the ceremony pictures just made it worse. Well no point complaining, "no money, no talk" but hell I'm still proud of all my friends cause i know how much they all had to endure to get where they are, and trust me i salute them for it. Brothers graduation is coming soon too, i don't know if i could be happy for him or just roll on the floor while crying my eyes out cause there is definitely gonna be lotsa comparing going on.
No chances of giving up cause I know giving right now is not gonna happen when i have several responsibilities assigned *yes assigned* to me already that's needs to be take care off a.s.a.p so all i can do now is not give up and do my best *horrible moto*
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