My 3 week long holiday is almost over, another 1 week, left which will past in a blink of an eye. Anyways heading back to K.L tonight, cant explain how much i hate going back there :(

This semester holidays was total crap, been so upset and worried about my results that i could barely have fun without thinking of it. I had no mood to go hangout so i just stayed home and whined, baked and read like 11 novels till today. Thank god most of them were good, or i would have been whining for that too.

The Books I drowned myself with

Well, now i have nothing left to do, but to wait "patiently" for my results to come out and ruin my life :(

Emotional Constipation, the 2nd

Life has been so complicated ever since December stated, December has definitely not been kind to me :( So many things has happen that if i start typing it out here it would be equivalent to 5 posts. I do not know how things got so bad. Anyways, finals were crappy. I might be seeing two papers next semester back again, which I'm definitely not looking forward to. I keep thinking about all these things that i cant have fun being free now. I'm with my family, something that i always look forward to but the problem I'm having has managed to overpower the fun feeling i always have :(

Baking has helped me forget my problems awhile, but i think i over did it, and i now have 2 layer cakes and 3 butter cakes, and choco chip cookies and brownies. Mom made me stop and now i have nothing to take my mind of those annoying issues.

People around isn't much help either. Everyone is being annoying right now. I so feel like stomping on people's faces every time they annoy me or saying something stupid to me, but i cant so i just yell....yup i yelled at everyone in my house and some of my friends and cousins. I'm sorry for yelling but clearly they knew i wasn't in the mood and they still annoyed me and they got what they deserved.

Movie marathon right after this, hopefully this will help.

People were curious about what had meant in my previous post, since it didn't make sense to some, im not gonna explain so please don't ask what i meant *no hard feelings* , If you knew me you would have known what i meant at the 2nd line itself :)

p.s if some of you think i was being mean when i replied ur messages im sorry , i really didn't mean to, the post is jz to let go some pent up emotions i had. That's all.

Its so hard to describe how it feels

Life's unfair and everyone knows it

But why rub it in the face more ?

Gets what they want and what about others ?

Fair ?? Not really

Too much too handle

Too much pain to see

So stop

If hopes cant be given than don't let there be dreams

It shatters hearts, and will forever be engraved.

Loved ones abandoned, hateful ones remain ?

How to love when love is not shown or given ?

Hateful ones get them, but why not self ?

But where to go when there's no where else to go ?

Lied more then should but believing is a must

Things like this lasts forever, so why not happiness ?

It should stop...and it stops right now

Love Language [HD]

Heart just went awwww :') true love...which many people know it doesn't really exist, but whoever created this believes in it, and some how i want to too <3

The awful feeling

OHMYGODDDDDD tomorrows the day, feel like crapping in my pants already ! arggggghhhhhh !

I'm gonna be facing a bunch of smart arse people, lord knows what kinda question would poop out in their nerdy head of theirs :s

I so don't want this to happen

I think im alredy having a nervous break

actually

I was nervous the very day she said we had to do a presentation.

I hope i don't forget anything and embarrass myself and my group mates

I hope no one remembers me after that

Wish me luck !!!!

Dieeeeeeeeeeee :s

The week has been absolutely horrible ! Datelines and assignments and preparing my research materials running my experiment tabulating results, studying fr a class test and preparing fr a I'm-gonna-die- presentation ! and to add all this up my throat still effing hurts and im stillcoughing like i have tuberculosis . Stupid throat has not stop hurting, and its already been 2 weeks !

I've been up and running from 6am to latest 8pm everyday for the past one week, its so tiring :( i just wanna stop and do nothing, BUT I CANT !

Freaking finals are next months so which mea

ns once im done with all my assignments by the the 29th i would have to start studying, and since i have two freaking papers on the same day i'll have to cramp my brain up more then usual.

Now that's alot of whining =.= i hope no else is going through this, so lets all pray that no one has to go through stuff like these anymore...yeah right...not gonna happen..

If i don't have a new post soon, i may have probably com

mitted suicide.