Newbie !

Was talking to an old friend the other day, this girl knew ever since we were 13, anyways we were talking about random stuff and then we started talking about how i use to be so nice to people, and how i never fought or yelled at anyone back no matter how much they did to me and how much people took advantage of that and yet i still never did anything about it . And then she said something that i haven't realise, she said that I'm no more that person ! and hell she was right, now I fight back !

Once a friend of mine was making me do her extra work, i actually stopped and told her that I'm not doing it for her or doing any of her work anymore, and then my friend was making fun of my maths grade, and i said i just suck at math at least i have a diploma unlike you, and she never said a word after that about my math grade, and i use to ignore the posts about me on fb, and never really cared about it, and hey i confronted that person ! or like my aunts keep saying i was putting on weight every time they saw me, and i said, so do you guys, and you know what i have the same genes like you guys so of course I'm gonna be fat, they got a upset told my dad and yada..yada they never commented on my weight after that. My brothers now don't dare pick on me now cause i whack to, i grab whatever that's around me and whack, so they kinda think twice before fighting with me

I'm actually fighting back, for my rights, i cant believe i was such a coward last time. Well that old me is dead and gone, you wanna find fault with me, you're gonna get it back ;)

My week

Had an awesome week ! My dad was in k.l for a week, so i got to spend the whole week with him, had our bonding time, just the two of us, and addition to that i got to stay at Ancasa Hotel and Spa, its an awesome hotel, with awesome food and of course their ever so soft bed that you never wanna wake up from. This only lasted till Friday, cause he had to leave and go back to alor star, and as always i start crying ever time my dad sends me home. I still hate it and will always hate that part :(

Anyways, the next day, it was my friends birthday so me and a bunch of my friends spent the night partying at the Celsius club. It was an awesome club, that i can tell, we danced all night loongggg. I still cant drink or stand the smell of alcohol, everyone found that part of me amusing, I go to clubs but i don't drink or smoke, they say its like the weirdest thing they have ever heard, but hey i still don't like alcohol, and the only reason i go to clubs is cause that's one place that i can dance off my worries in loud music and forget my worries, especially for the worries and problems that i was having since last month. Needed to get hthose crap outta my head !

Then came home and everything became crappy when I got food poisoning, i was so hungry that i ate something that may have been a day old and i started puking and having diarrhea, I felt so freaking weak, its like every time i go to the toilet i flush down my energy too. still having it now too, couldn't go to class today and kinda missed my discussion for an assignment, but its reschedule so no worries there. Now, all I want is my ginger drink and a bed and I'll be fine :)

Speechless

Isn't this the sexiest thing ?

*heart melts and drops to the floor*

Sweetest and cutest ever !

A guy with all his awesome tattoo while kissing a child, perfect !

***Taken from Tumblr, don't really know the source. I'll just acknowledge this picture by stating where i took it from and Thanks. ***

September 11th

It has already been 10 years this awful event that has happened... I was watching it on the History channel at Astro just now and it was horrible, especially when those people who actually experienced those deathly moments in the World Trade Centre. Watching the towers collapsing and wondering how many thousands of people were still in there and those who were pushed out of the tower was just bad. God Bless them all and may they rest in peace.

A picture of the land where the two towers were.

taken from -->seancarney.tumblr.com

Emotional Constipation

I have been through a emotional month, i was emotional and the most important people to me contributed these emotional feelings to me which actually kinda ruined my holiday. One after another, a "big lump of crap" falls on my head. I'm happy today and the day after I'm back to being emotional.

I know no one can expect to be happy always and there is always a must to keep our feet's planted to the ground and therefore that "big lump of crap" falls on our heads were created. All I wanted was a peaceful and happy break away from my college for a month but noooooooo that didn't work out. Instead of having a break i was busy looking for solutions to all the problems. Plans that were planned did not happen cause of those problems and now I'm back at college to study....awesome right ?? I know ! Well. despite all this yours truly did not commit suicide or slash herself, all she wants to do now, is try and get through this like always :)

Another thing is that at these times is when you need that one person that you trust the most to be with you but instead they turn around and hurt you more, and makes you feel so alone. Sometimes i wonder is there anyone out there for us ? People say that there is always gonna be that someone to care for you, IS THERE REALLY ? ? I feel that this is all a lie, we are always gonna be on our own mending our hearts and consoling ourselves until the end.

Semester has just started with all the crappy subjects to take and to make my life a living hell :) Gosh !!! i hate studying !!!! but what choice do i have,im stuck with it just for a scary thing called my future.

Money.. I need more of it :( someone would like to donate some to me, im here to accept it :)

Taken from- http://lefttear.tumblr.com/


This is exactly how i feel, and when i say this it made me realise that there are people just like me.