Ignorant Pigs

I find this super true :(

People can be so ignorant to my feelings, and just saying what they feel and then forgetting it the next day or even unconsciously or hinting to me things that they think I'm too stupid to realise until i confront them... I find this so sad that i actually cry every time i think of something that was promised to me but never happened. I have put in tons of effort but nothing is done from the other side. So should i still continue to do something that no one is going to appreciate or even acknowledge it ?? I haven't cried this much in so long, I'm glad that i let everything out today, all i needed was to be alone where no one could hear me.

Why is it that i be so nice to people and they treat me like crap in return ??? and yet i feel super bad and still make an effort to help them and be nice to them after that... When will i learn ???

Green monster inside me...

I'm happy that everyone else is happy, but there is still jealousy deep down in me ? I don't know what to think about this feelings. I know I'm just jealous cause i cant get what i want like others do, even if it was my birthday or anything, and maybe that's why I'm upset or maybe just jealous of my friends getting stuff that i wanted and me not getting later or at all. It is kinda frustrating when i think of it.

I feel stupid feeling jealous or upset or small things but some how even if know that what i feel towards people close to me is not right but i still do it anyways, all i do is keep on having this jealousy feeling deep down and i start to kinda like get annoyed with that person. Sometimes i think I'm just being bitchy but when i actually told my friend this, she actually said that she has it too. That made me feel better a lil bit.

All i know is this feelings and thoughts will know go away very soon, but hey i can try and control it...i think...

Long week !

Been a busy week for me, finished my finals crappy-ly on Tuesday and Wednesday. Then went on a shopping spree with sharon to hunt for a dress for my bestie's Jeya's 21st Birthday. Fist we thought of getting her like a stuff toy cause she liked it but then i thought she has tons of stuff toys and plushies so lets just get her a dress and than find a picture if me, jeya & Sharon together frame it and give it to her on her party day. After taking the wrong bus to times square and getting stranded, we spent almost 3 hours looking for a gift and finally we found a perfect black dress, it was lacy on the top and a plain black from the hips. Than got my mom a pretty blouse and finally headed home.

Than i went to work on Saturday morning, which was exhausting. Than on Sunday around 12 me and Sharon went on our way to Jeya's house, she fetched us from the bus stop, took us home, helped her with a lil cleaning her and there, than followed her to go get her cake and some other things went home listened to her whine about how hideous her cake was and also laughed the whole way back home insulting her cake too. Than got dressed and so we ate took tons of pictures and ate and than at 2 am I finally went to sleep like a pig.

A story of a BI**H

I have this friend, she is or maybe was close to me but she has turned into an annoying bitch. I hate her and her bloody slutty attitude which apparently has begun to shine more than she already was.

I have never felt like slapping anyone like i do when I'm with her. She thinks she's good cause she knows she gets whatever she wants but yet this bitch still whines like she doesn't. Why ?? Cause she's an idiot.

I hope someone would tell her off one day, i wish i could do it but i cant, so i hope she gets all the bad things as much i do, than she would know how it feels to be in my shoe and hopefully stop her bloody whinings. I know you get alooottt of attention but how long is that gonna last ? You can show off now cause you have the support of people, but what would happen if you finally dont ? and that's when you would see what i have been telling you.

Owh, if your so pretty then please do stop throwing yourself at men who treats you like a dog. You really don't have to follow that like a dog too, you willfind someone, so stop acting desperate and move on.

Again ...

You have to do keep on doing this to me right ? Is it to annoy me or just to show that i have nothing compared to others ? I hate you for this...try having a lil' sympathy once in awhile ? Please ?