ahoy !! depression

i haf been wondering around or should i say loitering, at home and everywhere else for the past 3 months doing absolutely nothing progressive or anyhting usefull....

i tried getting a job but its just not working out well n i have no idea why ??? i feel so crappy, im like this overgrown child living with her parents without contributing anything but a troblesome to them. gosh, living at home and doing nothing is so depressing...

i should be in a uni by august ( hopefully) and i haf to start working part time to support myself ( thnx to my big mouth of boosting i cn support myself) as in extra poket money to buy stuff i dont need like clothes, shoes and the list goes on...and on...

may god bless me....