i see it passing....right infront of me

Found out something i never wanna find out. I was kinda happy with myself why did you have to go ruin it for me. I'm not some kinda spoil brat that demands things, I'm a good person i don't do bad stuff, i don't whack people, i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't go fooling around ! so why me ? i love what i was doing and i don't complain, cause i love what i was doing so why do you wanna take it away from me, i found solace in it, it was the only thing i loved, and now its all gone. u took half my happiness away and now i have to suffer for the rest of my life...i have no idea what to expect in my future, or what am i to xplain of this. I fell so lost right now, its like whatever hopes i had for myself, has all dashed... all the question remains for you...why me ? haven't i had enough ? when will it stop ? did i deserve all those things that's happen including whats happening now ??? was it really my fault ?? do you think that this life needs to be spared longer ??

randoms....

This is a picture of our remaining food on our plates. Its actually a small piece of a fried egg yolk burger-ed with 2 slices of cucumber and topped with a pie,corn n carrot. That's how bored we were waiting for our next class. Three 21 year old's manage to bring out their creativity and create this, which ever one agreed that it looked like those expensive dishes sold at posh restaurant.

This picture is actually bird shit splattered on my brother's

friend's car back screen. i captured this when me and my brother took the car to the car wash just to was it out. What in the world did that bird it ? look at the size of it ? i know this is gross but hey its still funny :D

Hunter Chicken

This chicken, i met for the first time was about 3 months ago, he /she and antr chicken, i think it was a male cz it was huge ! came walking like a boss towards me like i stole their food while i was waiting for the bus to arrive. Chicken *alive one* still scares the crap outta me, especially this ones cause they were both kinda big for a chicken. They were very bad chickens which i guess didn't like sharing their food this i did not assume cause i was waiting there one day, a puppy was there to looking for food and it followed the chicken hoping to get something but ends up getting pecked 3 times. i hated seeing that cz i kinda have a soft spot for dogs..but the puppy was smarter he walked off to another side where it was a small restaurant . *adorable*

Anyways, every time i and wait for a bus, they both com, i have no idea whether its coincidence or what but they come straight to bus stop jumps on the bench and stands there, and that's where i run for my life. Till 2 weeks ago, when i was waiting for the bus, only one came, the male chicken wasn't insight at all, i assume he has been eaten, so i decided not to run away to the opposite side of the road, and just stand a short distance from it, and that's the picture of the chicken proudly standing on the bench :) hope to see it again.

bummer...

Damn days have been passing so fast, and been wasting most of it. since i flunked my quantitative paper which was a pre-requisite paper so i couldn't enrol myself in otr subjects, pathetic right ? so i ended up only taking two, so for the next 5 months i only have 2 days of class, imagine how much time do i have to waste :( cant blame everyone about that, cz its all my fault ! owhhh n stupidity to.

I have my game demo tomorrow, and then stupid quantitative quiz and than in a blink of an eye its gonna be finals which would be on the 22nd and the 23rd...curses.... than I'm off to my long awaited semester break...I'm only looking forward to that :D

anyways my blog is so dead, i created it so that it would sorta be my daily diary but that's if i had exciting days, but sadly i don't, i live a very sad life where entertainment does not happen so that's why i have been posting out things i wanna let out, or interesting things that i have been through n other random stuff. so for that person who asked me why i don't update my blog everyday, well here is your answer :)

FAT AS A FAT PERSON

I admit I'm getting fat, every people i know and sees me and says "Omg ! you put on allot of weight ? what happen ?" all i do is smile and say " I'm prosperous, and i love food ". I know I'm fat and i did put allot of weight since i came to K.L.

I CAME TO DISCOVER RECENTLY THAT I ABSOLUTELY LOVE FOOD ! i cant help it, i stop only when I'm full, and i tend to nibble allot on tid bits in between, especially almond chocolates. i cant help myself ! there is just so much temptations, there is always something to eat. Dieting had never ever worked for me and exercising is not something i want to be doing especially the plca where i live.

i used to not care when people said i was fat but i think I'm starting to realise now that i need to drop some pounds. I have stopped taking my dinner, and eating once a day bt that plan failed cause my mom hates the fact that i don't eat, so i tried skipping my dinner and eating my dinner instead but then didn't work either cause when I'm in college during the day i get hungry super fast and my tummy makes weird noises and i have to eat. so dieting is soooo not my thing !

but hey i do walk allot when I'm in college * hmm, that's why I'm hungry often* haha
but i was always ate in small portions, i could never eat more then 2 spoons *the rice spoon that is* of rice and there was never second rounds. so that maybe a reason why i eat snacks and other junks in between. damn...I'm screwing up my life...

Still finding a way and i will find it...one day...owhhh wait maybe its in my genes ?? haha my mom and dad's siblings are all fat, maybe that's how i inherited the fat figure ??? fine, that's not it...

whatever it is ! im gonna find a way !

Paranoid freak !

Is it ok in giving up on your hopes ? especially if have of ur hopes don't come true ? I'm so tired right now, i hoped for so many things and everything just gets destroyed ! I feel so hopeless, I'm losing out on the life I'm suppose to have, I'm so disappointed with myself. How did i end up this way ?? i had big plans for myself and there's is no more plans anymore left. I'm tired of trying so much now, I'm letting myself slack, and let things go with the flow. There is no more the need for me to put i n my effort anymore.

Weird things has been happening lately to me, my body hurts in places that scares the hell out of me, i haven got myself checked either, my friends are getting weirder by the day, my mom and i would have more wars now, I'm being paranoid about death, and this freaks me out that sometimes when i see people sleeping and i would wait till i see that person tummy going in and out *inhaling and exhaling* and finally my love live is getting crappier by the day *unexpectedly*.... this is all for now..its so weird for me, i cant think straight sometimes and I'm now officially scared for myself.....am i gonna die ? or is something bad is gonna happen to me and that why I'm going through all these weired occasions ??

I'm paranoid as ever. :(

My First Thailand Trip

On the 26th of February was my flight to Bangkok, Thailand. After getting our stuff checked in, we hugged everyone and there we went just the three of us, me, Sharon and Jeya. It was my first trip out of Malaysia actually *I know it’s sad* so I was so excited and not to mentioned my plane ride, it’s not my first but I only went on a plane when I was little so I don’t really remember how it was like, and so I was thrilled for that too. In the plane, I got the window seat by luck because the passenger next to me missed the flight! Yay! It was awesome looking down through the window n taking picture quietly* not allowed to use any electronic or battery like devices on the plane*

So when we reached Suvarnabhumi airport, and omg! It was so big and they had so many things inside, they had their bus stop there and train into the city directly too. We took a bus to our place which was Sukhumvit by the way and boy, the driver was so talkative but helpful to, he made it a point to tell us the names of the places we stopped and what shops to go to. Then we reached our hotel which was Imm Fusion. The place was beautiful, the interior decorations was awesome! And as you walk into the hotel that lead to the lift they had this beautiful Lord Ganesha statue that was surrounded by green plants and behind it was their pretty swimming pool, where it surrounds the lounge, massaging parlour and the gym. For a reasonable priced hotel I think this place had overdone itself. But the room size was kind of sad though, it was small, but the beds were huge! So after putting our stuff down and changing to something comfy we headed down to a small night market, but had to bail cause there were too many “activities” going there so instead we went to the mc’ds beside our hotel to get our dinner * burgers were not so nice but their fries were awesome-err* took it back to lounge area at our hotel and ate to our hearts content and took pictures too and headed off to sleep.

Next morning around 10 we arrived at Jatujak Market, it’s like Petaling Street was it was huger. They had sections too, for clothes, furniture, decoration, food and so on. But still too wasn’t cheap the goods sold was still the same price when converted back to Malaysian currency. So I got some stuff for my mom from the furniture shop and some t-shirts for my brothers and a blouse for me. Then as we walked we ended up at the back of a Mall! Got some stuff from there then headed out again rounded Jatujak Market a lil more then took a Tuk Tuk (auto) to Victory Monument. Damn it was like we were flying more than riding in it, it was freakin fast and scary but v still took picture though  There, I got some awesome killer heels and cute sandals for my mummy ann me and than 2 gladiators sandals for myself. I got 2 jerseys for my brothers that costed me 100 Bhatt (RM 10), but it looks fake though, but who cares. Then went down from that mall to another huge market, which was called Victory Point. Amazing clothes but again expensive a little. Did not get anything there though cause the some stall were just being set up, so we decided to call it a day and went home. That night we headed to Nana, another place where they had a night market. Did a lil shopping for my boys and then had MC’D’s again  and went home, took more pictures and slept peacefully awaiting the next day!

The next day we headed to MBK mall. It’s something like our Bukit Bintang or Times Square. Got some more T-shirts for my boys and a blouses for me and my mom and then went to a modern art gallery, actually we just went outside of the gallery. They had this statue heads of a few cats * I think* and a huge dustbin spilling crumpled papers all in ginormous size. Took more pictures there and then we headed home to rest awhile. In the evening we headed to another night market which really looked like Petaling Street, there I got handbags sandals and t-shirts for my boys, a dress for me and a huge travelling bag to stuff the things I bought in to take home. With all of that we headed to Victory Point again since it was still early, there I got a few dresses for myself, and boy with all the walking we did the day before and today, my foot was killing me, my heels and ankles was about to break that wherever I found a spot to sit I sat ! around 10 pm *their timing* we headed to the train station and headed to our hotel, to start packing as our flight would be at 12pm the next day so we needed to leave around 8 to get to the airport which was half an hour away. Also at the room I finnaly realised I had spent whatever money I had brough till there was only 20 bhat left, damn !

The last morning we rechecked or bags and the room to see if we left anything behind and then got ourselves into the taxi and went off to the airport. But we actually reached there at 9 so we were too early, so we got some awesome sausage buns, chocolate drinks, n Pocky * Rocky in Malaysia* sat at one corner with our enormous bags and ate an took pictures. And then with heavy hearts we went on to check in our stuff and boarded our flight. I sure do hope to come back again, with more money though next time.

Here are very little of the picture v took, was to lazy to upload :D



the swimming pool area

Our luggage *going home*

The Tuk Tuk

The cats i mentioned at the art gallery


MBK Mall



Our hotel


The Lord Ganesha Statue

My passport Chop ! haha




My bording passes Going and Coming

Pocky *in Msia its Rocky* The chocolate drink, compared to here for rm 1.60 u gt a smaller box but this was rm 1.50 (1bhat) n it was huge *350 ml* so cheap !

*The End*