i see it passing....right infront of me

Found out something i never wanna find out. I was kinda happy with myself why did you have to go ruin it for me. I'm not some kinda spoil brat that demands things, I'm a good person i don't do bad stuff, i don't whack people, i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't go fooling around ! so why me ? i love what i was doing and i don't complain, cause i love what i was doing so why do you wanna take it away from me, i found solace in it, it was the only thing i loved, and now its all gone. u took half my happiness away and now i have to suffer for the rest of my life...i have no idea what to expect in my future, or what am i to xplain of this. I fell so lost right now, its like whatever hopes i had for myself, has all dashed... all the question remains for you...why me ? haven't i had enough ? when will it stop ? did i deserve all those things that's happen including whats happening now ??? was it really my fault ?? do you think that this life needs to be spared longer ??